| Friday, April 13th, 2007 |
| 12:50 pm |
"But back to you cheating on me. I know I've said this already but you should have told me sooner. Maybe we wouldn't have kept on dancing. But it would have been better. What you definitely should have done is told me immediately. I don't know if either of us would have learned to dance like we did if you had, but I know I would not have had to have gone through this last week if you had told me. I feel like we are the best things that could have happened to each other. In a way I am glad you kept me in the dark until we fell in love and then much longer. But it is such a selfish thing you did and I deserved the choice. If I'd've broken up with you (which is impossible to say now), then we simply weren't meant to be. You've fucked me up, Em. And I do not trust you." OUCH The rest is unprintable and I'm still waiting for his answer becuase I'm that fucking pathetic. |
| Tuesday, April 3rd, 2007 |
| 6:20 pm |
GIVE ME ADVICE!
what do u with your time when your boyfriend is deciding whether he wants to be with you or not because u are a cheating bitch who doesn't deserve to have anyone love or care for her? helpx Current Mood:  anxious |
| Wednesday, March 28th, 2007 |
| 9:22 pm |
ciao amici, scrivo in italiano perche avro il mi'orale e ho paura perche non sono brava in italiano e ho scritto niente ieri sera e non vorrei scrivere niente sta sera. Penso che io sia stupida perche avevo molto tempo fare il mio presentazione e ero stata piu pigra farlo. Adesso trovo per l'informazione dovrei sapere ma so niente di Bennetton e la famiglia di Benetton e sono triste. Vi voglio bene. emx |
| Wednesday, March 21st, 2007 |
| 8:42 pm |
I think me and Dan might split up tomorrow. I don't want to but i can't see an alternative. This is going to hurt.... Wake from your sleep The drying of your tears, today we escape, we escape Pack and get dressed, before your father hears us, before, all hell breaks loose Breathe, keep breathing, don't lose your nerve, breathe, keep breathing I can't do this alone Sing us a song, a song to keep us warm, there's such a chill, such a chill |
| Sunday, January 7th, 2007 |
| 5:43 pm |
At 3 a.m the room contain no sound except the ticking of the clock which has begun to panic like an insect, trapped in an enormous box Books lie open on the carpet Somewhere else you're sleeping and beside you there's a woman who is crying quietly so you won't wake. |
| Sunday, December 31st, 2006 |
| 7:18 pm |
Saturday night- OH DEAR.
I went to see dan at school, stayed and watched trainspotting then went back to wells and did the pub crawl. Not pretty. Then iw ent to Kudos( shittest club ever) until 3, you knwo when u r fucked when u stay there til closing. knocked myself out on a door, just got up and carried on. met alex and his friends. went back to his friends hosue and drank til 7. his friend is buff, his firend hit on me, his friend is 30 and used to be head of design for vivienne westwood. I didnt do anything which is fucking surprising but...ahh, i dunno. Laft at 8 got home, died and then had my mum screaming at me so left and went back to theirs and stayed all day. Dan phoned and fucking lost it at me and now he doesnt believe i love etc etc and i dont know what to do. i lvoe him, i want to be with him but i want some freeeeeedom. i dunno. help? anyone?
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| Saturday, December 30th, 2006 |
| 9:27 pm |
I had my audition for casting in all the plays for natioanl youth theatre this summer, scary shit. It went ok apart from i was asked to sing on the spot which but i managed to sing somehting that wasnt ba aba black sheep and was reasonably in tune so it wasnt too humilaiting. My speech could have gone better though but oh welll. Want I really wanted to say is- My Dad Fucks Me Off. xxxxxxx |
| Monday, December 18th, 2006 |
| 5:12 pm |
i'm coming to london on the 27th is anyone around? love x |
| Monday, December 5th, 2005 |
| 8:59 pm |
( 2005 )
Current Mood:  calm |
| Wednesday, November 16th, 2005 |
| 8:48 pm |
:) I've been offered casting for national youth theatre which means i might be doing plays in central london in the summer which is exciting. Got to learn a speech tho which is a bit poo. love x Current Mood:  accomplished |
| Tuesday, November 15th, 2005 |
| 8:35 pm |
mmm I'm in a really shit mood. I'm not talking to Dan and I'm kind of stuck with what to do with our relationship. It's not fun. He really hurt me today though and I dont want to just give in but i dont want it to end and at the same time im not sure its going anywhere. i really dont know what to do. i know i love him but i also know there something not right.... help is there anyone out there who is lost and hurt and lonely too are they bleeding all your colours into one Current Mood: anxious |
| Wednesday, October 19th, 2005 |
| 2:11 pm |
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| Saturday, October 1st, 2005 |
| 7:36 am |
It's mine and dans anniversary in 2 weeks. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE any suggestions of a present??????? love xx |
| Saturday, September 24th, 2005 |
| 6:45 pm |
i know im late, but everything is down in the countrrry A- Age of your first kiss:twelve i think...sam andrews ha B- Band you are listening to right now: anthony and the johnsons, so sad, did my drama to it. C- Crush:ella cutter D- Dancing experience: crazy shit E- Easiest person to talk to: most people F- Favorite ice cream: mint choc-chip or cookie dough G- Gummy worms or gummy bears?bears hands down H- Hometown:clapham is the old school old school furzedown is the old school and now wells, sooo good I- Instruments: trumpet (shh) and singing? does that count? J- Junior high: burntwood then millfield K- Kids: 20 L- Longest car ride ever: london to the islands above scotland, dont even joke.... M- Mum's name: samantha N- Nicknames: em/collins/sandwich(dont ask)/spot(mum only) O- One wish: everyone elses wishes will come true P- Phobia[s]: sick, flying Q- Quote: psh R- Reason to smile: people love you S- Song you sang last: kinda embarassing...choral music... T- Time you woke up today: 7 U- Unknown fact about me: i dont dye my hair? V- Vegetable[s] you hate: most.aubergine W- Worst habit:putting myself down X- X-rays you've had: chest and ovaries...sexxxxyyyy Y - Years since you've been to church: um beginning of year service at school 2 weeks ago Z- Zodiac sign: saggitarius Hope everyone is well. im nakered but happpppy. ive got a drama workshop with a v famous group 2moro and im v excited...im such a geek.shhh. love u xxxxxxxx Current Mood:  sleepy |
| Sunday, August 28th, 2005 |
| 1:02 pm |
hey everyone, just got back from the national youth theatre course, was ammmazzzziiinng. so much fun. i got my results i got... eng lang-a* drama- a* hist- a art- a science- aa italian- a maths- b p.e- b bcs- b Im happy yeaaahhh im so surprised i even passed maths! and soooo glad i never have to do it again or physics or p.e or bcs which is yaaaayyyyy. hope everyone is well. ring me? love u xxxxx Current Mood: happy |
| Thursday, August 11th, 2005 |
| 7:21 pm |
hey lovely people. i just got my star tattoo (burntwood style) its on my right ankle, outside. it didnt hurt that much. yay yay yay yay yay. love you al xxxxxxxx |
| Friday, July 22nd, 2005 |
| 7:23 pm |
i have read 4 books in 5 days. i think i am doing it to enter other people's worlds for two weeks until i want to be in mine again. i just finished a book and should probably start another one soon because im feeling pretty crap. |
| Monday, July 18th, 2005 |
| 8:10 pm |
What if there was no lie
Nothing wrong, nothing right
What if there was no time
And no reason, or rhyme
What if you should decide
That you don't want me there by your side
That you don't want me there in your life
What if I got it wrong
And no poet or song
Could put right what I got wrong
Or make you feel I belong
What if you should decide
That you don't want me there by your side
That you don't want me there in you life
Ooh ooh-ooh, that's right
Let's take a breath, try to hold it inside
Ooh ooh-ooh, that's right
How can you know it, if you don't even try
Ooh ooh-ooh, that's right
Every step that you take
Could be your biggest mistake
It could bend or it could break
That's the risk that you take
What if you should decide
That you don't want me there in your life
That you don't want me there by your side
Ooh ooh-ooh, that's right
Let's take a breath, try to hold it inside
Ooh ooh-ooh, that's right
How can you know when you don't even try
Ooh ooh-ooh, that's right
glasto 2005, coldplay. so incredible.
i really miss dan. he sent me beautiful emails though. im really thinking im so lucky to have someone love me as much as i love them. i dont believe him half the time, not until i catch him looking at me and smiling or when we say goodbye in a busy station and he holds onto me like he never wants to let go and tells me he wants to be with me forever its not that that is the amazing thing, its that i feel exactly the same way. I am in love.
Current Mood:  numb |
| Thursday, July 14th, 2005 |
| 8:46 pm |
I am going friends only so comment on this and i will add u if ur not already on my list. love xxxxxxxxxx |
| Wednesday, July 13th, 2005 |
| 1:36 pm |
Sometimes i look through my computers picture files and in webcam i find really funny pictures of my dad trying to look hot and it makes me remember boys never grow up (my dad at ur xmas party el?!)
heres a classic i just found
 Current Mood: happy |
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